Paper dolls: a story of early-onset OCD and acceptance

NellyOne of my featured posts this week is by Neurotic Nelly and her experience with OCD.

Nelly writes:

“At four years old it was said that I had OCD. I was a paper doll. I was small and fragile. I was easy to bend and easy to tear.  A gentle breeze could fold me in half. I was afraid. I felt pain so much more deeply than others my age. I was afraid of germs. I was afraid of death. I was afraid of everything. I had intrusive thoughts and images. I had phobias and fears. As I grew my voice inside my head grew. As I aged the voice in my head lurked. Telling me horrible things. It spit it’s lies in my ear. You are worthless. You are crazy. You are stupid and ugly and no one will ever accept you. Time went on, every year adding a layer of paper and pretty bits of string to my paper doll.”

Find out how Nelly learns to accept herself with OCD and her perspective on mental illness by visiting the original post at MentalHealthTalk.info: http://mentalhealthtalk.info/OCD

Thank you.

Love,
Trish

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The voice of trichotillomania

SandyThis week at Mental Health Talk, Sandy shares her experience with trichotillomania (hair pulling) and how wanting to tell her story has helped her to find her voice.

An excerpt from the post:

I longed to have someone like me to talk to, cry with, to share the hurt and shame.  Someone who would understand what I was going through. I wanted someone who would get it, get me, see me – the real me.

So here I am, writing a blog about trichotillomania. Here I am, a voice, for those not ready to speak up.

And that purpose, I spoke of is this:

I am here to let others know that they are perfect exactly like they are AND exactly like they are not.

I am here to listen and share my story.

I am here to be the person I always wished I had had in my life.

I am here to eradicate the shame around trichotillomania.

I am here to step into the shoes I was always meant to wear.

I am here to love myself and all of you.

I was meant to be a voice.

And today, I am here to be that voice, The Voice of Trichotillomania.

To read the full story over at MentalHealthTalk.info, please follow this link: http://mentalhealthtalk.info/trichotillomania/.  And while you’re there, we’d be happy to hear your feedback on what it’s like to be a voice for your experience with mental illness.

Medicating my life

Hi again.

This week Samantha Seto guest blogs and creatively expresses her experience with early on-set bipolar and how years later, she found what helped her to take that step toward recovery.

An excerpt from her story:

I was a young lady who muddled her way in this world. Lost in bizarre depression and mood disorder. With a heavy load on my shoulder, I was uncertain about the direction of my future. I had thoughts of suicide from a very young age and much of my time was spent either contemplating suicide, or experimenting with it.

Plummeting into darkness on occasion made myself a burden. When insomnia attacks, I get frustrated and the anxiety builds up. That deep gut feeling where everything is my fault. It’s 3 A.M. and I think about all the times people have promised me that things will get better. But they don’t…

To read her full story, please allow me to reroute you to MentalHealthTalk.info: http://mentalhealthtalk.info/medicating-my-life/.  Please share your experience and feedback in the comments there.

Thank you.

Love,
Trish

Your host for the latest edition of TWIM

batshit-crazy-smiley1Hello all.

This weekend I had the pleasure of creating the This Week in Mentalists edition over at The World of Mentalists (TWOM).  It’s a pretty cool weekly round-up and profiles lots of different blogs from the “madosphere”.

I featured the blogs:

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Living With Bipolar Disorder, DID and Childhood Abuse
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Kate is Rising, and
The Secret Schizophrenic.

Please check it out here.

They are looking for volunteers to write these weekly editions–all you need is a wordpress account.  You may want to consider it if you’re interested in attracting more readers… guest blogging always increases my referrals and TWOM has a considerable following.   You can sign up here.

Much love to you,
Trish

Coming through the other side of depression

Hello all.

This week Twyla Wilband from Inside the Looking Glass is writing directly to you as she relates to what you feel like when severely depressed, want to self-harm, and suicide ideation.  She knows because she’s been there.

An excerpt from Twyla’s story:

“I know what it is like to feel heartache, to feel alone, and to wonder why God has given you life. Wanting to curse God that He made a mistake giving you life where there are people around dying and want to live. I know what it is like to wake up in the morning with no physical or mental energy and wondering how you are going to get through the day. To feel sadness that lasts for days, weeks, and sometimes months without end. I understand the feeling of discontent, no matter how hard you try to change your mood- there still is that underlying feeling of numb and that something is missing. To feel ambivalent about everything, I get it.”

To read the rest of the story, and voice your opinion and/or experiences in the comments, I would like to reroute you to MentalHealthTalk.info by clicking on this link: http://mentalhealthtalk.info/depression-suicidal.  You will also get to see a beautiful piece of art by Twyla.

Thank you and have a great day.

Love,
Trish

This is an excellent idea and I encourage you to check it out.

Mental Health Cop

I was a bit early to collect my son from school today so I sat in the car listening to BBC Radio Five Live – my preferred radio channel.  Richard Bacon was interviewing the actor / singer John BARROWMAN and his sister, Professor Carol BARROWMAN and the subject came up of accents.  These guys were born in Scotland to Scottish parents but moved to the United States as children.  Consequently they can speak easily and naturally with with Scottish and American accents and often switch for different reasons.  They were talking away about the concept of having two ‘natural accents’ when Carol suddenly described the practice of swapping between them as “a bit schizophrenic”.

It reminded of a boss I once had: someone who on one occasions took exception to two opinions I had which she regarded as inherently contradictory and informed me that “it was a bit schizophrenic if…

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Spiritual awakening: doctors label it delusional but one healer calls it magic

Hi there.

4261868579_0f6990cce9_oThis week on Mental Health Talk I interview Gary, a participant in my storytelling program at a local mental health centre.

I have a vested interest in this interview because I wanted to get his perspective on spiritual awakening and spiritual emergency… something I have been pondering about my own psychotic break ever since I read the posts on Schiz Life about schizophrenia and spirituality.

A little teaser from the interview:

The room at the back of the Krasman Centre is dim and dusty from the windowless walls and second hand furniture.  I do not mind because I am happy to be in Gary’s company for our second interview together.  The first time we talked about the war against the poor on the streets of Toronto.  This time we are going to cover a completely different topic.

“The wounded healer…” Gary mutters our interview topic as he looks through his knapsack to find me his latest handout advocating against Public Health recommending chest compression in response to an opioid overdose.  He hands it to me and I read the title ‘Never Give Chest Compressions to a Non-Cardiac Patient… Chest Compressions is the Worst Thing You Could Do.’

Gary is as much a student of humanity as he is a student of mysticism.  He was introduced very early to the healing arts and to belief…

How come he did not become obsessed and delusional like I did when I was introduced to the practice of the healing arts?  What made our situation different?

These are some of the questions I ask him.

Please click here to head on over to mentalhealthtalk.info and read the rest of the interview.  I am also looking for your experience and/or opinions on this topic so please do not hesitate to comment… I will make sure Gary gets your feedback.

Thank you!

Much love,
Trish